I started playing Among Us a few days ago and umm

I'm really bad at it. Especially impostor weh. And also I keep changing my name because mmm inconsistency

You have seen Hakanai Chisato, now meet Death Stare Kaoru

juri akamine (NEP2NE)

day four of bandtober is bassist(s)! just juri for today since DARK★PORTAL's bass is all completely computer-generated. hopefully all my catch-up work will be finished so i can start working on the regular days.

juri is blunt, methodical, and deadpan. she is experienced in the musical field and very jaded -- she's been in a handful of bands, the most notable of which was a fairly serious band. this band made it to the finals of a girls' band contest before losing and subsequently splitting up. this failure resounded with her, and was a main reason she was so hesitant to join NEP2NE in the first place. her experience in the industry puts her at an advantage over her band mates, barring kiyoko, and while she may seem like she holds it over their heads, all she really wants is to be helpful and find her place in the band. juri idolizes RAS, specifically CHU² and LAYER.

in the band, juri is also the manager and advisor. her expertise and knowledge about the social climate of bands and the professional industry puts her, and the band, ahead of most self-managed girl bands. along with kiyoko, she works on equipment and booking.

link to the bandtober list

has anyone else been unable to log into disqus from mobile in the comment sections? desktop works fine and I can also log in just fine on the actual disqus website, but for comment sections on websites it just gives me an error. hence why I've been a lot slower at commenting & replying than I'd like lately (since the page just redirects you to the comment section unless you're answering a reply to your own comment via notifs) ヽ(￣д￣;)ノ clearing my cache & cookies did nothing. please tell me this isn't just a me problem sobs

I drew this halloween chisato and I tried to make it look like watercolor hope it looks nice!

FINALLY!!! It took everything I had, and it paid off!! TT0TT

This is my proudest moment both as a Sayo stan and a Roselia fan ♡

This is not a regular post, it’s me talking about personal stuff that’s happened to me semi-recently but before you even think about reading on, know that this post was made with a positive conscience. It’s in the past and I’m fine with that. I’m moving forwards with a smile on my face and this is something I know I should get off my chest.

Around early August, I made the decision to leave my irl friend group because I was fed up with how two people constantly behaved. Whether I was truly happy or not with my choice, it was never a choice I regretted. Of course, there were people I still call friends in there (it’s hard to make me dislike someone, it’s an accomplishment) that were worried about me with how I acted and that, friends I wanted to keep in touch with but as time went on, it started to feel like they had no reason to talk to me. When they have the group, why would they? It may not be the case (I really hope it wasn’t the case), but that won’t stop me from thinking it. When you’re me, you’ll very easily take things the wrong or worst way.

I’m on good terms with some other irl groups (that’ll come up later) but none I ever talked to much, and especially not online, so I had almost no one to talk to, save for my best friend and the friends I’ve made on Banpa. They know who they are. If it weren’t for them, I’d probably be in a much worse state, back then and probably now. They’re my main motivation for writing my fanbands as well and I don’t know where I would be without those fanbands. Regardless, not having people to talk about irl stuff (not saying that I mind talking about irl stuff) in a time when you can’t really meet up with anyone is a pretty bad combination. Time went on and I started feeling worse and worse. To summarise early Aug to mid Sep, I was lonely and extremely sad. Of course, there were happy points but if you asked me if I would want to go through it again, I’d have to politely decline.

Fast forward to my birthday and with the people from the old friend group I wanted to keep in touch with, we were planning a irl meet-up night for my birthday in the future. Even me, who would never agree normally especially in these times, knew it was something I needed to go to. And then that never happened. Then an incident happened with my friend and that pretty much solidified me never going back to my friend group. Whatever that group’s up to, they’re a past I’m fine leaving. The only problem with this event was that it reminded me of an aspect of myself I despise. I always find myself in the position of comforting someone. Perhaps because of that, or maybe I’m too good for my own good, that I find myself unable to talk about my own issues with problems others. I want to, but I can never bring myself to. How can I when I’m always on the receiving end? Bottling up something is never good when you keep it in for so long, but I can never follow my own advices, even when I know it’s for the better. I just don’t want to make people worry or sad. If what I do might do that, then I’d rather never do it. That’s the problem with this stupid, selfless side of me, this part of me that I really hate. But, in the end, even if I always tell myself this, even if it true in this case, it’s my problem to resolve and I did just that, unknowingly. A couple days later, a friend from my old old friend group sent me something (if you know my 1st Garupa Anni. post, the friend group I talked about there) and on a whim, I decided to join the voice channel on their Discord server (I’ve always been a part of it, but I’ve never been on it until then). That was the most fun night I had in a while. It wasn’t friends to talk to that I wanted, it was having the courage to take that first step. I had the solution, I just had to take it. After that night, I finally felt comfortable with leaving my group. I was ready for a new start with university. And oh boy, uni. Of course I was extremely nervous about moving out but if there’s one strength I gotta name for myself, it’s my adaptability. Just took a little longer to get used to it and a bit of crying and I've come out having lots of fun, even if my options for fun are a bit limited. I’m super happy that I’m roomed with my flatmates and for once, I let myself be vulnerable for once and told a new friend, in short, what was said all above this. It felt great getting it off my chest, even after coming to terms with said things.

Again, there isn’t really a point to this post besides just getting things off my chest. I wanted to do something like this back around my birthday and I’m glad I didn’t because it would have been a post where I wouldn’t have been happy while making it. Not mainly because of how I was feeling at the time but, like always, because I don’t want to make people worry and that’s a problem I just gotta work around, nothing I can do about it. It’s just in my nature and that’s fine by me.

Heyyyy I'm back with posting stuff and not just spamming comments on disqus

Tbh I've been feeling strange? I've been having 0 motivation to do anything, like always but even worse. Bandoctober and costumes will probably not be completed and I just feel like I want to do nothing everyday. But also I've been feeling really good? So idk anymore.

I think mabye a costume or two MIGHT come soon but it's just going to be either about my best girls or a stupid thing.

For now take the complete image of the OwO Tomoe, with paranoid Tsugu and... Idk anymore Moca is Moca

Credit to riru (〃ω〃)

My fave other song:

BABY SHARK IS THE BEST OTHER SONG CHANGE MY MIND

no it’s a joke. That song traumatized me forever ;n;

If you consider Glitter Green’s song are in the « other song » category, then I love a lot Don’t be afraid! I also love Pico! Papi! Girls Band Party! PICO!!!

We finally finish my fave song ! It’s was pretty long haha

i forgot what number we're at for random rants with nikorinnie, is it 8?? i could care less im rollin with it

extremely random but the other day someone asked me which bandori/love live character i sounded like most and that honestly got me thinkin

if you know me then you know me thinking isnt a good thing

thankfully me thinking didnt lead to the end of the earth, but im genuinely curious, can i ask the same question? like obviously you dont have to answer if you dont wanna but like

my answer would be anyone with a deep voice like karin or kaoru if you though about it ;-; but then out of everyone i sound like misaki the most (YAY) but my speech patterns might be closest to masuki's if anythin' (i dont curse okay-)

thats it im trying to finish drawing my horse rannie if you dont mind

edit: HHHHHHHH I JUST REALIZED I HAVE 40 FOLLOWERS TYSM ;________;

Day 9 - Fave to last fave in Morfonica

I not know so much about Morfonica and RAS so I haven't got an oppinion about them.