okay so shochu venting time (contains a swear word so if it triggers anyone then just don't read this)
i've been feeling very bad lately and i've been so tired that i could barely walk straight and i would've fallen off the stairs if i wouldn't realize i'm gonna trip. i also started having problems with looking people in the eyes. i just can't. i talked to my friends and one of them said to check if i have anxiety or something like that. i've been looking for symptoms of it and i found out that i might have it so i went downstairs to talk with my mom about it and she LEGIT SAID THAT I'M MAKING SOMETHING UP AND IF I'LL KEEP TELLING MYSELF THAT I HAVE IT I'LL ACTUALLY START BEING PARANOID AND ACTUALLY GET IT. I'M LIKE SO ANNOYED RIGHT NOW. SHE SAW THAT I WAS TIRED LIKE SHIT AND SHE KNEW I'M STRESSED. THEN WHY DOES IT ALWAYS END UP LIKE THAT HUH? okay i'm sorry for that didn't need to yell
but school was really stressing for me and i've been really tired lately and i could barely sleep at nights. i'm really tired tbh. my stomach has been hurting too. really, if she sees that i'm struggling and i've been tired then why won't she just talk with me instead of trying to tell me i don't have anxiety and i'm 100% fine?
(Not related to BanG Dream!) Can someone tell me why I spent my free time in the last week memorizing the dance to Ra*bits's "Melty♡Kitchen" MV? Stupid boys and their ability to lure me into their cults.
Also speaking of Enstars, I have a question for people familiar with it, since I'm new to the game. Will it take too long to save for a 5 star of my best boy? Because it looks like the 5 stars of characters are very spread out because of how far apart events are, so I'm wondering if it'll be a really long time (I'm saving for Mitsuru btw).