day ten: favorite harohapi character

i feel like you guys can just guess by looking at my icon or by just smelling me.

I SMELL LIKE A KOKORO TSURUMAKI STAN

note that these cards are not my "favorite" kokoro cards, because i love all kokoro cards

AAAAAAAAAAAFHDSJGSIDJGHJKASFAOKFJAOKJ AAA AA AAAAAAAAA AAAAAA あああああああああああああ!!!

i love kokoro tsurumaki so much it isnt even funny like i would wholeheartedly eat my toes for her?? i would kill a man for her?? and quite possibly a woman??? there are no words in this dictionary that could possibly convey how much i love this girl but i can always try

do you want my tragic epic backstory? no? ok well you have it anyways

i joined the bandori fandom thanks to my dearest hellkawa twin natsundere (thanks aisu ur the hina to my stupid). thus, i joined endori in june of last year during the wedding event, and just the beginning of white beginnings paspal event. at that point i had no idea what to do (thus i had no idea what the frick a gacha was, so i missed out on my limlim tomoe rimi chance). also, note how that both events i just mentioned have nothing to do with kokoro tsurumaki in no way. how could i claim to have loved her from the beginning if my intro to endori had absolute zero to do with her? after all, the intro to the game is basically popipa-centric.

the thing was, i didnt love kokoro from the start.

i dont actually quite remember who my very first best girl was, but i remember doting heavily on afterglow and i believe lisa?..,, but either way, i was not associated with hello happy world even remotely and even then, my favorite from harohapi was kanon.

however, as i delved deeper into area conversations and band stories and rereading the happy phantom luxury cruise, i found out that my burning love for kokoro was much more vibrant than i had ever known.

generally, in real life, im more of a quiet, introverted girl when not spoken to. its hard for me to freely speak with new people because of my over self-consciousness and pure doubt of my own ability. but seeing kokoro in conversations and events, being able to speak like there was nobody else, being so vibrant and filled with life, it really just struck deep into me?? here was this bubbly, blonde, rich girl who basically was the embodiment of sparkles, smiley faces, and circus treats. topping it off, she was a genius (although not a sky-breaking genius like hina, but still a genius), which i was certainly not. in fact, i had often undergone terrible thoughts and times because i hated /not/ being a genius, i hated being so stupid and i hated just taking days or weeks to learn a concept that took others a few minutes. you could say that i had, or have, an inferiority complex, which is actually not that wrong.

this initially made me turn away, because i either am inclined to hate or love characters that are nearly stark opposite from i am. so in this case, i was prepared to hate this little baby with all my heart. i was prepared to loathe this baby girl who was FICTIONAL because she just had natural talents that i did not, which ive learned to accept is fine! but i couldnt bring myself to do it, not after delving even deeper.

kokoro is often found smiling, cheerful, and happy-go-lucky. its rare to make her frown or sad, and even in chapter2 band story shes generally happy and determined. this ended up intriguing me because usually characters like this end up having a deeper side to them behind the facade- and i know, trust me, i have written ocs who are generally like that. craftegg still refuses to give me kokoro development, so all we know is that kokoro is a rich girl who is practically a game show host and will eat your limbs if you make her friends sad and then end up apologizing and buying you prosthetics casually. ive seen many rich characters, and many were bitter in /some/ way, so why was kokoro an exception? no matter how talented you may be, you cant fake everything you have and manipulate it into happiness.

this was what brought me to love kokoro. she was so caring for all of her friends no matter what and was willing to go through crazy circumstances to make them happy. this unconditional kindness, no matter what her personality is like, is just so pure and sweet and i love it so much

ok ive run out of vocab so STAN KOKORO TSURUMAKI!!!!!!!!!!!! BEST GIRL!!!!!! kokohina