hey fam has anyone else watched this anime show called texhnolyze?? i just remembered watching it last summer and i felt so bad and deflated for a whole three weeks or something after i saw it

like i was babysitting a lot back then and after i watched it i was just laying on the floor feeling like a half-eaten cucumber while my baby nephew crawled on my face, it was that kind of show, i am just wondering if anyone out there can relate to the horrible and yet disturbingly peaceful experience of watching it

Personal life, aka everything unrelated to anything that interests people

like neko who cares about your freakin' personal life smh go to bed it's 10pm

Anyways for the people who have scrolled to here, basically, neko has a hecking crush, although it shall remain one sided for the rest of eternity because of crippling social anxiety. I go back to school so I get to see him but I honestly hope I have classes with him next semester? Gotta set off those anime romance flags- oh wait, that's probably why I don't have anybody... x3x Anyways I don't know a lot about him, as social anxiety limits me, and I'm not the kind to stalk further than social media, which he only has one in the first place. But he likes video games, so that's uhh one thing we have in common I guess? I don't know if I even like this guy or can say I like him truly given the fact I don't exactly know him that well, but it is what it is. I don't really have a certain part of him I'm attracted to, it's like a whole tol boi. He's really tall. Help.

Neko shut up it's sleep time

nO

Death

Gn

vent post ahead, pls scroll past if u want, it involves some triggering topics.

today my father passed away after struggling with an illness for a year and a half. please have him in your thoughts and prayers. i don't know how i'm going to get through this, but i know i will.

Boarding NOW from Tokyo back to Israel.

Fueeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee x_X

Hi

If you missed Summer, skip to 1:10 or listen to the whole music

Today preparing to leave japan. Amazing country. The most polite country ever. And I even served as a shinto priestess. Which felt amazing.

//gets ready for another crazy jet lag 🙄

So.. I probably really need some glasses. I've always seen everything really clear and stuff but today I woke up and things that are just about 2m away from me are already kinda blurry. And my eyes hurt. Welp, this is fun~

Happy new year ducky fam!! 2018 felt like a wild rollercoaster to me, but im hoping 2019 will be smoother. I dont really have any major resolutions yet tbh. I know that i would like to make more friends and work on improving my mental health so thats something. I hope everybody has a great 2019 filled with good vibes and happiness!! 🐥💕 i love you guys lots and lots and im always thankful and happy to be part of such a nice community. Here is to a good ducky year and also some sweet bandori/gacha luck uwu

vent:

I am mute. I can't talk, I can't sing, and I don't know sign language. It's scary. I wasn't born mute, but whenever I try to make a sound, it feels like I'm trapped. Recently, my mom payed for a super expensive surgery to have me fixed. It didn't help, of course, and my mom feels really bad. We have been going through some tough times recently, and I have been feeling very alone through all of this, especially since I can't comfort her or tell her everything is going to be fine. It isn't, and I'm really scared for her. I have a tendency to worry when there isn't anything to worry about, but I am sure that there is something wrong. She's kind of...snapped, I feel like. And I can't do anything to help her because I can't say anything. Not a word. It feels awful. I love her, and I can't save her. She's been saying weird things lately, and the only thing I can do is pray. She cut herself yesterday on purpose. I can't really be all happy right now, even though it's New Years Eve. Please don't worry about me or my mom, just ignore this if you would like. I just needed to share this.

have a wonderful new years, everyone.

thank you.

e// Guys, I have great news. In the few hours that this post has been up, I've been feeling better about communicating with mom. She said that she's been going through stuff, including the surgery failure, but she is sorry for making me worry. She didn't cut herself on purpose, actually(she dropped the knife while cooking lunch). She has scheduelded(wut) another surgery for Tuesday, and it's with the best doctor in the state. We have to drive quite aways, but I'm happy to say that he has treated conditions like mine. I could have a voice again, and I couldn't been happier. My mom is feeling more confident, and she is excited about this as well. Thank you all so much for letting me pour out my heart to all of you, I appreciate it so much! Happy New Years, everyone, and thank you all for your support! I hate being so negative, and I'm happy that this episode has been put to rest. I can't thank you all enough for helping me(cheesy line coming up oops) find my voice :)

Happy New Years, from Annie~~

e2// Guys, I have wonderful news--the surgery was a success! Your support meant so much to me, and after hours of sitting in a chair, I can talk again! I am over the moon about this, and I am so happy this is all over. I appreciate all of your love and support, and I thank all of you with my whole heart!

It’s been a while guys. I first would like to say Ran has already lost the war if Rinko continues to duplicate herself. Also this was my first time FC a song with a level of 26 and I’m just so happy and proud at how far I’ve come since I fell down this hole in May.

Work has been keeping me busy but doing BOB the last two weeks has helped me connect with wonderful people and find new ways to have fun while playing Bandori. This week has been great since I had my first small project on revamping another team’s site and my manager praised me after I demoed it. I was nervous at first and questioning my job but it seems like I’m competent enough at web development after all. 🥰

Next week I’m going to finally see Day6 in concert and I’m so excited. I’ve been having their music on repeat for the past few weeks and the day is nearing soon. I can’t wait to meet them in person since I’m doing the meet and greet. Let’s hope I don’t cry or faint when I see Wonpil up close.

Sorry for the long post but I feel like I’m not active enough on here anymore. I’m slowly adapting on making time for Bandpa and discord so I can keep in touch with people. I hope everyone has a wonderful weekend and hope you guys get Eve when she drops soon.