happy Birthday Misaki/Michelle

using yukina’s bday as an excuse to release probably nonsensical thoughts about bs3 again because i have a problem

so y’know how garupa kinda skirts around dealing with difficult/complex situations involving side characters like family members. in the beginning it felt like the writers might’ve planned to go about it differently with stuff like aglow bs1 and introducing hagu’s home situation and of course yukina’s father in roselia bs1 but then retconned/downplayed the “her family don’t talk about music anymore” in a song unfinished and thereafter barely touched on whatever Bad Things happened in the past. Including in bs3 where it would’ve been very appropriate to do so since it is about roselia going pro and yukina having reservations about it. but THE THING IS. it’s maybe precisely because of what Isn’t said that bs3 makes me absolutely insane

yukina is a future-oriented character who is ironically haunted by her past issues coming back to bite her. it happens in bs2 of course but bs3 somehow reads like a parallel to her pre-bs1 spiral into obsession as if it’s sort of indirectly addressing what was never shown, in a way that says This Way of Handling Things Is Very Very Her. she starts out happy and fulfilled just like she was as a child. she’s having fun with music and no longer using it as a means to an end. but then things change and suddenly everyone else has a reason to want to go pro and she alone doesn’t and she falls back into forcing other people’s goals on herself to the point she seems to want what they want more than them (i’m not saying she didn’t want to go to fwf but it wasn’t out of her own ambition y’know … it giving her a purpose seemed more important) and doing what she thinks she has to do instead of listening to her heart and it’s like … this is what happened before just less extreme

the fact that we See It Happen unlike in bs1 when she was already deep in the hole she dug herself into. we see it. the moment she commits to this new goal, her new everything, because god this girl does not know what half-hearted devotion means. the quiet quiet resignation as she agrees to sing a song she said roselia would never perform again. the lies the persuasion the betraying her values and justifying her own actions to herself as well as the others the rash decisions without consulting the others the desperation hidden under the logic as she keeps singing and singing and it’s not working and she knows it but can’t stop. no no yukina no not again. don’t do this again. she does it again. she has roselia to snap her out of it but. oh to be the same person you always were in changed circumstances and you’ve grown so much and yet. you can’t escape the curse of being you. she is so real for this

not addressing stuff explicitly Could be a device that reflects yukina’s avoidance of her feelings. in bs2 we’re not privy to her thoughts at all until she breaks. in bs3 she thinks about the future like it’s a logic puzzle so that’s all we get but yeahhh her actions say otherwise. she’s scared of what will happen to roselia if they go pro but rationalises the living hell out of it, downplays her concerns and decides they’re doing it anyway. everyone else wants to and it’s the best path for them! her father gets one passing mention as if she’s over what the industry did just because she talked to one (1) pro musician in the zeal of proud event. she is not over it. “I thought that perhaps the fulfilling time we spend on our music would end,” she admits later. does that sound like someone who’s over a very similar fulfilling time having ended before. (tweaked the translation because it left out the 終わってしまう which is the most important part.) then ako and rinko reassuring her that change isn’t so scary and doesn’t mean the end and no one ever mentions the past but ugh it’s there

also LOUDER as a symbol of the past and unfulfillment and incompleteness and the whole birdcage thing associated with it … goddamn she really did leave that baggage behind only to find herself trapped again before concluding that it’s not that she won’t sing it anymore, it’s that she can’t. like it’s something beyond her control

(isn’t it ironic that the Sprechchor mv shows her bandmates trapped when she’s the one who actually is. almost like she feels responsible for holding them back with her uncertainty and thinks the entire burden of freeing them rests on her—)

yukina isn’t bad at emotions, quite the contrary especially in events where she plays support, but she just does not want to deal with her own feelings when they act up. she’d rather things be controlled and orderly! which is not how emotions work! people think she’s just an ass because outwardly she doesn’t appear to be struggling until the rationalising and problem-solving and bashing her head against a wall don’t work and she’s forced to face her feelings and there’s nothing more threatening to her sense of control than oh god Feelings

the senkou mv as a representation of that … her antagonist self depicted as a violent and unpredictable threat that literally puts her system on red alert but who is also made of light and y’know, that pure wide-eyed child at her very core who reminds her of her love and passion for music … her entire arc about rediscovering that love, and facing her feelings both good and bad being the key to facing music. and bs3 has her acknowledge that she needs to talk stuff out Before she ends up doing all sorts of reckless and confusing things as a band-aid solution yet again

the way she is such an unstoppable force and yet. she’s just a girl who sings. sayo accused her of having no vision beyond fwf all the way back in bs1 and … she really didn’t. she wants to reach the heights of music which is a really abstract unworldly concept and music when it’s connected to her love in its purest form is what matters to her, not fame or commercial success, and yet she keeps sabotaging her truth and and

(really interesting contrast with rui who thought her love meant nothing without talent and recognition while yukina thought she had no right to sing with impure feelings despite being talented and recognised)

anyway thoughts eating my brain. funny how roselia bs3 is the one where yukina is “too nice” and the only bs3 where no one ends up in tears but the things it does to me … the glass shattering in the pv was way too dramatic for the tone of the story but maybe that was the point

Cíu tui🥲 Shocked

LUCK IS ON MY SIDE!!

Update: I just need one more Misaki card to complete her collection.

For my next illustrations I've planned to draw a pairing of every band, starting out with Harohapi's Misaki and Kokoro! I've rushed to finish this for Valentine's, since what could be more fitting? ;w; ♡ I love these two so much!

here’s a wonky list of what ur fave Bandori character says about youuuu! (Inspired by MVPerry and slimycracker on yt!) also ofc they aren’t 100% accurate lol

kasumi - you either just started the game and noticed she’s the main protag, or you’ve stuck with her this entire time like a pro

tae - you like rabbits and airheads a bit too much

saaya - you’re chill and ily

rimi - your favorite holiday is halloween just so you can pretend to give rimi chocolate

arisa - you try to tell everyone that’s she’s not just a tsundere, but non-arisa enjoyers will not understand

ran - your hot topic’s clientele

himari - you hate when moca bullies her

moca - you love it when she bullies himari, and you love bread

tsugumi - you… you’re a thing?

tomoe - you wish you had a cool big sister like her

aya - you’re sad when she cries (aka you’re sad a lot during pasupare stories)

maya - you were or are in an av club

chisato - you don’t understand why people hate her and think she’s “rude”

eve - you like period dramas, especially ones with samurai

hina - you’re the fun and cool sibling

sayo - you’re the boring and serious sibling

yukina - you wish she were a cat girl

lisa - you want to try one of her cookies

ako - you’re a chuunibyo

rinko - you either are very loud and think she’s cute or you’re a quiet kid like her

kokoro - you’re chaotic good

kaoru - you want to be called “koneko-chan” - oh and you’re a simp

kanon - you like klutzy girls

hagumi - you like kokoro, but sporty

misaki - you like down to earth people and bears

mashiro - you tell her every day that’s she’s not a boring person (she says she is in her in-game dialogue)

rui - you like bandori-ized ayasa

nanami - you think she’s the most normal girl in the game

touko - you like the gyaru type

tsukushi - you want to be a leader and get sad when you aren’t

rei - you like girls without bangs

masuki - you like the sukeban type

pareo - you love pasupare and dying your hair

rokka - you love popipa and girls who look like middle school saki yoshida

chiyu - you probably have 40 different ras playlists

WHY DOES KASUMI HAVE A NEW GUITAR??????

I have been collecting these tickets for Misaki's birthday

Now with 50 tickets and 12,500 stars I am guaranteed to get her card.

random sketchbook yukinas sorry for awful quality i take pics at the worst times and can’t be hecked

but this is actually a fic post. here’s a short yukiran. i think it would’ve been cool for ran to have a scene in roselia bs3 since yukina is in aglow’s bs3 and the fact that they make the complete opposite choices would’ve been a neat thing to point out. also their recent jp content has been missing what i love most about their dynamic so uh. gotta feed myself right

yes i posted it anonymously and it makes no sense that i’m putting it here but i’ve just become very self-conscious about my writing and being perceived and would rather have fics floating in an abyss than attached to a profile. it feels more like linking a google doc than Big Scary ao3 y’know. my brain is weird sorry. in fact i’ve been posting other things and stuff from earlier this year which i am now in the mood to dump here. don’t mind me

soft rinari which i let marinate in a doc for two years i’m not even joking IT’S NOT EVEN 2K WORDS. upside is there are lines i’m pretty proud of

older domestic ariyuki solely to feed the tag

and the ones from the period when i was trying to make myself like lisa more and what better way to do that than to write about her (before the roseglow summer event that rewired my brain)

this one expands on noble rose 1 with chu2 and kasumi thrown in to make it even more of a sequel/throwback to the lisa’s lyrics event. why not

and the reason for this. 9k words of morfonica lisa au/rewrite of parts of roselia and monica bs1s to explore lisa’s relationship with yukina because i cannot vibe with it in canon (rarepair-liking curse) and wanted to see how writing it would feel

so yeah! writing is fun

i must say i underestimated the free gacha. yes, it doesn't always give you a 4 star, but now i have a full 4 star roselia set lol