Remember my little sister?

Who calls electronics "bushimo"?

Well, she's three and a half years old now, and this isn't Bandori-related but I got a short video of her singing sweet&sweet holiday from Printemps (LoveLive!) and it's low quality but I really want to show her off because she's cute and she's loved this song since before she could talk (long story).

I have corrupted the children.

Hina: Look in this mirror, Aya. I see a strong, confident, beautiful young lady.

Aya blushes and smiles

Hina: Oh look, you're here too!

original quote from tangled

So, in case you haven't seen on the BanPa Discord, Scared Squared's buttons have been available here for a while now.

Within 10 minutes of them coming out, I bought 5 Kaoru buttons.

They came in the mail last week, and since then I've been wearing them all over myself EVERY SINGLE DAY.

(there's one more, but it's on my pants bc why not)

ANYWAYS.

Pretty much everyone in school has been giving me weird looks.

My teacher pulled me aside and was like "Why do you look like a walking button display?"

I just said this:

"I'M GAY AND I LOVE A GIRL!"

He just shrugged, and I realized just how much people are used to my weirdness.

TL;DR I LOVE A GIRL NAMED KAORU.

honestly god bless blossoming in largo for helping me not dislike sayo. i could never really like her despite having the most ridiculous sayo luck, having her dreamfest 4 star, getting tanabata sayo like four times, initial sayo three times, and autumn rain sayo about seven.

i actually wrote a whole essay about why i really, really disliked her, but this event story is really helping me see why people like her so much. she's still not my favorite, but i don't like disliking characters, so i'm glad i can see this side of her! <3

a few hash tag teenager problems but bandori version

one

garupa: hey wanna come hit my flick notes? ;)

me: sorry my samsung said no we're laggy tonight :(

two

"oh my god no one understands me. i'm so lonely and i don't fit in ANYWHERE. all these boring kids at my school are so overly obsessed with the same stupid shows and celebs and music and they never seem to care about anything unless it's popular. so impressionable. ugh."

ding

"OMG MY ALARM!! THE EVENT IS ENDING IN AN HOUR AND I NEED TO USE UP CHALLENGE POINTS BUT I HAVE BIOLOGY NEXT...well, mRNA is gonna have to wait because I NEED TO TIER FOR MY BABEYYY!!!"

later that week

"oh em eff gee. i read on some random unreliable stranger's twitter that this is amita's favorite yogurt, so i have to eat it even if i think i'll hate it, bc amita. amita is literally an angel and i must love all her favorite foods"

my favorite sif AND bandori experience

my baby sister turned three in september! so around the time bandori was released, she reeeally started to pick up new words and phrases...

...because i was now playing sif AND bandori, she heard a certain phrase a lot...

bushimo

i don't even live with them anymore, so i can only play a couple times a month. she still calls the ipad the "bushimo". so when she wants to play her cat and the hat game, she says "bushimo?"

she calls the tv "bushimo". if she wants to watch the baby einstein episode that shows a bunch of transportation, she says "canoe bushimo!!!" (she really likes the word "canoe" and apparently likes the scene with the canoe where they repeat the word "canoe" an ungodly number of times)

she calls my mom's phone "bushimo". she loves the snapchat dog filter when my mom wants cute pictures with her. so when my mom gets out her phone, sometimes she'll go sit on her lap and say "bushimo puppy!! bushimo puppy!!!!!"

she calls the remote "bushimo".

i can't tell whether this is legendary or just plain sad.

theory

chisato's power is so strong that the ww server broke on her bday

"bandori working properly...how fleeting" --seta kaoru

before april 2018

me: i love sif, so much, honoka (MY WAIFU AND BEST GIRL!!) appeared on my screen telling me to scout and i did and i solo'd valentine's mari UR and OMG HONK IS TOTALLY GOD CONFIRMED. also i finally FC'd nicopuri EX and my GOD that was a trip. and also i did a step up for μ's 2nd years and prayed for a honoka UR and sif delivered IN THE FORM OF HER GODDAMN BROKEN NECK INITIAL but then i did another scout praying for china dress koto but got devil umi which is totally fine since i lovelovelove umi-chan desu and also have i mentioned daydream warrior is the bop of the century omg i've loved it since the preview came out also GNGK is severely underrated and a masterpiece and imo bibi kinda sucks except for the cutie panther single bc natsu owaranaide saved their asses from 6th place on subunits list taking 5th instead while cyaron takes 6th i love cyaron since chika and you and ruby are all top 5 and i love their characters and voices but besides yozora the music just doesn't sound good to me idfk. also can we talk about how deep and complex characters honoka, kotori, hanayo, nico, chika, yoshiko, mari and ruby are? well like all the characters are really deep and complex, except for maybe umi which is a fucking shame considering she had a lot of potential to be and i still love the heck outta that girl despite her not getting as much development as i'd hoped for. hanamaru also didn't live up to my s2 expectations but the manga and s1 really did enough for her imo, while they did nothing for ruby and lookie here she got a whole s2 arc. anyways i'm crocheting a blanket with little pixel designs of the lovelive characters because i love sif oh and i forgot, my honoka ita bag is complete and my naka-kon lineup consists solely of lovelive cosplays because what else is even relevant at this point and--

friend: yeah, ur so right, but like, did u hear that bandori is getting an EN release? i've never played but it looks fun :)

me: i might give it a shot seems boring tho idk, the show was a shit excuse for an anime idk

me now

me: i love bang dream girls band party, so much, every time kaoru (MY WAIFU AND BEST GIRL!!) appears on my screen or anything i feel a smile creep up my lips OH MY GOD. also i got her initial 3 star and then i saved for her phantom thief 3 star and it came home first pull along with a dupe 4 star saaya which i should have been disappointed about but oh my god??? baby came home???? kaoru is such a fake top i love it i wanna call HER little kitten to see how she reacts and have an ultimate Battle of the Baes to see who is the ultimate prince, me or her and oh ye i 4got am i the only one who prefers tsugutomo to tomohima? i like tomohima and all but the way himari is like "if only u were a guy..." it just wouldn't be healthy for tomoe yknow??? also sayohina are such a realistic and complex pair of sisters, sayo seemed super boring to me at first, like a mean-ass dia but now i see how relatable she is it's amazing!!! i can't wait for kaoru's first 4 star ahhh but my little sister got into the game and solo'd away 5000 gems UGH i hATE my lIFE there goes 5000 gems with only a rinko initial 3 star to show for it not that i don't like rinko she was one of the first girls i liked in the game it's just that i was saving for kaoru yknow and it was all solo'd away just like that i really need an app locker i guess or to get my own ipad. i finally FC'd guren no yumiya on hard and that isn't a big achievement i know but to me it was and soon i was FCing EX songs and i can't clear most 25 star difficulty songs yet but i'm getting there i promise. i love hello happy world character interactions so much also saaya and tomoe make such a strong drumming brotp i swear. also i want rimi and lisa to be like best friends, i know it's a weird combo but i feel like they'd be really good for each other and lisa deserves the validation and friendship of someone who actually realizes her worth like rimi would because yukilisa can be nice but yknow lisa is someone who needs that constant validation for her self-confidence's sake and the relationship is SOOOO one-sided she's always helping yukina and yukina does nothing for her (if you're actually reading all of this comment "bless" somewhere in your comment in the comments section c:) and you could argue that "just being there for yukina" makes lisa happy enough but dOES iT???? also i actually really like popipa, kasumi's voice is so satisfying and malleable to fit the needs of any song i could listen to it all day long did i mention that kaoru is my wife oh yeah and

friend: played lovelive lately? the new event is so much fun. also, your waifu isn't honoka anymore? hasn't honoka been your waifu for 3 years? more than half the amount of time you've been obsessed with lovelive?

me: ...

me: ...lovelive? whomst? honoka? what? not ringing a bell srry

my favorite thing about bandori is that eve is part of the new year's set bc then there's a

new year's eve

psa not related to bandori

hi i'm an anorexic and i'm sick and tired of people telling me that eating junk food "isn't healthy" like um. bitch. in case you haven't noticed i'm 164 cm tall and weigh abt 43 kg (not to mention i've been gaining weight, i was dangerously low at one point), so just be glad i'm eating at all?

i'm trying my best. everyone with an eating disorder is.

in conclusion:

don't poke fun at or criticize the food choices of those with eating disorders. be glad they're eating. feel free to offer them healthy snacks in a KIND way or nicely guide them in the right direction. but don't criticize, it just makes it worse. be their support, not their worst critic.

edit, 6 months later: i'm like 49 kg now and i grew 1 cm and i feel so much happier and i am eating three good meals a day (snacking here and there, too). yeah maybe eating a family sized bag of doritos wasn't ideal but it got FOOD in me, and it got my body used to needing food and made me...wait for it...hungry! so i actually felt urges to EAT and EAT RIGHT! i ran a 5k for charity recently and if school allowed i would do many more. i work out a lot and i have abs (not suuuper defined, but they're there and i look a heck of a lot better now that u can't see my rib cage jutting out of my skin like some rotting skeleton) and i've been pretty positive lately! i was recently hospitalized for a health issue but it was resolved super quickly compared to normal (IDK, maybe bc i'm healthy??? :000) and HEY! GUESS WHAT YA ASSHATS?? i'm way happier than i've been in my life! but i couldn't have done it without tricking my body into wanting to be healthy! and i can safely say i got here BY MYSELF! 'twas nobody but ME who kicked my ass to get me on the right track, damn it! i got no one to thank! just a whole lotta "fuck you"s to give to people who think they know someone else's body better than they know it themselves!!! :))

I'M SOOOOO FUCKING PISSED

SO I PLAY BANG DREAM ON MY FAMILY IPAD BC I'M BROKE AF AND SAVING UP FOR ONE OF MY OWN.

ANYWAYS, MY 2-YR-OLD SISTER GETS INTO MY BANG DREAM ACCOUNT WHEN I'M GONE, AND MIND YOU I HAD OVER 5000 STARS SAVED UP FOR THE NEXT KAORU CARD.

SHE SPENT ALL OF MY STARS. ON SOLOS. SO I DIDN'T EVEN GET A 3* OR ANY CARD I COULD USE REALLY.

SHE'S ONLY 2, I KNOW, SO I CAN'T YELL AT HER, BUT GOD WOULD I LIKE TO