have you ever considered....

marshmellos alter ego?

eeeeEEEEEEEEEEEEEEeeEeeEeE

its been 4 mOnThS since i cleared this

nOveMbEr WaS tHe LaSt TiMe I cLeArEd ThIs

even im questioning "how the actual fuck did i do that?"

excuse me while i go into a corner and curl up in a ball for no particular reason

well would you look at that

i had a final "pre-test" today in english and looking at my grade(low b bc of that oNe test i flunked) i probably sucked at that.... and the class is supposed to be reading the hobbit(which is 19 chapters) and our teacher is like "cHaPtEr SuMmArIeS dUe iN tWo WeEkS" and im on chapter 9.

if i dont get my english grade up im gonna fuckin die honestly im probably too stupid for accelerated english anyway im better at math

this is the best moment in this event

change my mind

today was actually kinda fun besides the PaNiC aTtAcK i had today bc i got my auditions(mostly) over with(our time limit was up when we had to sing and guess what? im the lAsT oNe on the LiSt) and uh i got my keyboard today and it took me forever to figure out how to work the thing but its ok... it has these weighted keys and im like 'how am i supposed to play the triplet notes?' but i figured it out but im still an idiot

AND

sPrInG bReAk is in like 2 wEeKs

good bye

sO

hbd to the softest character eVER(and now im beginning to appreciate rimi now so shes not my least girl and in my top 10 now! least girl is misaki)she bARELY beat rinko in the softest cinnamon roll but hey shes all "chococoronet~~" and it makes me wheeze inside. you do so much for this band and are extremely good at what you do, so keep shining, rimi!

this is a start to actually ok grammar

im physically shaking rn.. my audition is in, what, 12 hours and still dont hAVE my sOnG memorized and yeah. but at least my stage fright is getting better so im not shaking when i have to sing my solo...

(you might be thinking, "why is this a big deal?".. sO this is my first audition for something like this and ive never really been through the process before and my parents are making a big deal out of it but thats what most parents do)

so at least my jitters will be mellowed down a little bit

OH I FORGOT

i got a school idol tomodachi acct bc ive played sif for a few months (bandori is still main tho) now. and getting an account i was like "these mechanics are kinda confusing but hey"

excuse me i need to panic for 20 minutes about absolutely everything

so i did the garupa sorter thingy and poof my top 5 are in their proper place ^^ ! the only reason ras isnt in here is because of my lack of time to get into the anime

me[listening to my roselia playlist]: ah yes

[playlist turns on a song that makes me cry, safe and sound]

me: im in class pleASE I CANT DO THIS IN THE MIDDLE OF CLASS

playlist: welp the sub dont let anyone go to the bathroom so gonna die in class

me: theres a hoodie on the table

me:

me: gotta go hide

god i need help i have no breath after my pe teacher t-posed in front of us

a rant about a little thing

me[has to study for 3 quizzes tomorrow]: ok time to study

literally anything that isnt studying: hi

me: goodbye studying time to move on

i feel dead now considering i have a reAlly great schedule where i have no free time after school. and by the time i finish that, hey i have to sleep i seriously had to do my science hw the period bEFORE MY SCIENCE PERIOD. i cant lose the 30 minutes of sleep i get each night. and then there is the AuDiTiOn on SaTuRdAy and my voice is slowly dying

so yeah hows your week been

me[name is natalie]: hey pe coach

pe coach: hi nelly

me: slfaJFKDGJWOJSJDJFJDF MY NAME IS SO EASY TO SAY WHY THE FUCK WOULD YOU PURPOSELY PRONOUNCE MY NAME WRONG

pe coach: ok then nelly

me: bye