Reintroductions I see?

Hi I’m Tsubame/Cay, female, Aussie-born Chinese. Lover of angst-induced crying, ramen and good rarepair food. Best girl is Arisa now and forever, with Rinko close behind but don’t ask me to rank the others bc I will spontaneously combust. PoPiPa deserves the world!

I put words on pages and do the art thing whenever the urge strikes. I play the piano too. Other than that I drown my insecurities with online distractions bc alcohol tastes gross

Currently into Revue Starlight bc uh. Stage girls. Also struggling to pump out fics for Bandori Rarepair Week but at least it’s actually working for once

Let’s all yell about fictional characters and have fun

So, Pride Month, huh? I’m ace, idk what my romantic orientation is—I’ve certainly had crushes on guys but when it comes to actually engaging in romantic acts I just. *insert I would prefer not to meme* Whether it’s because I’m something like akoiromantic or because of how much difficulty I have opening up to people I have no clue, but it gets too complicated so I’m just ace and that’s it. Part of me wishes being touched with any intention other than friendship didn’t make me freeze up/cringe and that I were less awkward with touch in general, but then again the fact that I’m like this was a huge part of what drew me to Arisa “D-Don’t hug me!” Ichigaya so strongly (even though I hc her as a massive disaster lesbian as most people do), so I guess it’s all good, right?

Since I don’t usually talk about this stuff online I’ve been spared from any ace discourse but I’m aware that if I were to call myself a heteroromantic ace I might be accused of being ‘pretty much straight,’ which is not true but honestly whatever, the bottom line is that love comes in many different forms, as do people, and all of them are valid as heck

And that means platonic love is important too! Sure, Pride Month is about romantic love a lot of the time and that’s great but as a romantically confused ace I crave close relationships as much as the next person—and although I am currently dating someone who knows what I’m like, there’s a heckton of compromising involved and I can’t help feeling guilty when I have to say no to things that make me uncomfortable. (Now that I’m here editing this post because as per usual I was self-conscious and trying not to get too personal before, I might as well add that my ex looked me in the eye one day and told me aces didn’t exist, it was just a ‘hormonal imbalance,’ which . . . wasn’t nice to hear.) So the idea of having a queerplatonic partner, a soulmate who loves me in a purely non-romantic way, is kinda the dream, y’know?

Yet romance is always hyped up so much that I’m a hypocrite and sometimes try to do dumb stuff like making myself ship something even if I’m not completely feeling it lmao. Take KanoChisa, for instance. They’re so perfect for each other imo and for the longest time I was torn on whether they were an OTP or a brotp. I really liked the idea of them being something in between, still technically a brotp but I feel the term is considered inherently less important than its romantic counterpart, so like. A brotp, but Intense. I could see them doing the queerplatonic thing but until recently I still tried to ship them because uh. EXCUSE THE ULTERIOR MOTIVE but if I ever wrote a fic for them, I wanted to put it in the tag ok. If I tagged it as Chisato & Kanon it would, again, seem inferior to Chisato/Kanon, like “oh I’m just writing about them as friends.” But I’ve come to a decision! KanoChisa are platonic soulmates to me and that’s how they’ll stay because it feels right and warms my ace heart. They’d still be amazing gfs though

Idk how much of that was related to anything but Happy Pride Month everyone!

Another bandwagon, what can I say

After being distracted by Starira and the hell that is tiering for Double Rainbow, I’ve finally written some RinAri drivel! I love them a whole lot and the recent event got the juices flowing . . . it was actually pretty hard to write tho, angst I can do but fics about more ordinary occurrences don’t come as easily to me

Well whatever, here ya go!

Hh

I did it!! 600 boosts and 1900 stars down the drain but it happened ToT

Thank heck the cutoff wasn’t 5 mil but the last two hours gave me exam-level stress with how quickly my rank was slipping. My dad accused me of being too obsessed with a stupid game . . . nO THAT’S NOT HOW IT WORKS YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND. No one wants to grind Legendary EN repeatedly and go from FC’ing A to Z to barely passing it and having to play on Hard towards the end (ironically I didn’t play Double Rainbow even once lmao). But you don’t resist the call of your best girl. You just don’t.

Arisa, PoPiPa, this was for you. I love you more than words can express and I haven’t stopped being emotional about Band Story 2 since I read the translation of it and decided I’d go for T100. PoPiPa forever and ever!

This is so sad PoPiPa play Double Rainbow

2 more days . . . my poor stars

POPIPA’S COVERING REVSTAR’S DISCOVERY AA

Oh god Double Rainbow. It cometh

I am armed with my 600+ boosts let’s go

AMEAGARI KASA WO SUTETE

Update (Day 3): ENdori are you ok the predicted T100 cutoff is over 5 mil. Like I’m glad PoPiPa supporters are rising up but also pls chill for the sake of my boosts

The Rise and Fall of Bushido Dad

Me: Oh Argonavis is cool, idk if I’ll get invested tho

Argonavis: *covers Melissa*

Me, a weak mortal who will explode at the mere mention of FMA: HI BOYS I’M HERE TO LAY DOWN MY LIFE TAKE ME SACRIFICE ME TO BABANBO-SAMA, OUR GODDESS MOCA, RNGSUS, WHOEVER YOU FANCY

Yes I’m a bit slow I can’t believe I scrolled past the vid without looking at what it was hhh

Hello why yes I’m here advocating for rarepair rights for my stage girls too, add me if you wanna! Three pulls for Halloween Kaoruko and absolute dirt but at least I have this beauty