i gotta wait until i get home to change my stuff so see y'all at like 7 or earlier lol

hey banpaaaa comm...

so.. i havent been active much due to the stress of school and all the above, go follow me on tiktok for daily-er updates!! rn i'm clearing out my following list so anyone whose up to be moots can follow I'll report back soon but for now byeby

i've been missing all my calls from my grandma on accident bro i'm such a bad person

im gonna post the first day of school thing tmrw guys im too worn out lol gngn

school is starting tmrw!!

and i am not ready, i am sorting through all of my school supplies, figuring out outfits, deciding how i'm gonna act.. not fun. and emphasis on the act one bc my personality is gonna be all over the place.. obviously gotta be nice to the teachers and i was at open-house/market but i think i was a bit too smug ig?? they were being odd with me.. and idek if my friends like me anymore or if they'll want to sit with me at lunch GOSH FINDING A PLACE TO SIT AT IN LUNCH ON THE FIRST DAY IS SO HARD and so far i only have 1 class with an ex-friend(?) and they sit across from me and i think their friend sits next to me... ITS NOT GOING GOOD HELPPPPP

also i probably wont be able to post on banpa during the school day cause number 1. they banned all devices except school-owned ones number 2. if i get a device its strictly for working on and if i get caught its a warning or a call to my parents 😟😟😟

im also scared because of the usual stuff like who im gonna walk home with, if i get lost which doesnt make sense on my part since i take the same way home and its not far BUT they change the ways u exit on what letter ur last name starts with soo cut me some slack, and supplies, they didnt list folders so i forgot about them and i got the meet the teacher papers and it says 'supplies: folders'.. FOLDERS??? i alr bought my stuff so i cant go back so ill have to buy them online if i need more for other classes since i have like 5 laying around.. and notebooks are basically the same except i dont have any laying around... THEY SAID YOU NEEDED 3?? I HAVE ONE FROM LAST YEAR WHICH IS PRETTY MUCH BLANK BUT IT ONLY HAS 80 PAGES AND IT NEEDS TO BE 100?? AND I RIPPED OUT A PAGE SO 79... GOSH. 4 notebooks, 5 folders. why is my life so agonizing broo. also, band, i forgot to buy a band shirt and i barely fit in my other one... AND I HAVENT EVEN BOUGHTEN THIS YEAR'S SUPPLIES.

expect another full-length 'vent' post on banpa tmrw. i am scared 4 my life.

anhane is back... summer is nearing over. this is a bit long lololol

vent-ish/rant/storytelling/update/what

my summers are all usually boring with nothing to invest my time in, but this year it was slightly different. you see, i really had nothing going for me, as i was slowly losing interest in genshin and bandori, thankfully i had project sekai to keep me for the first 2/3 weeks. (i also started migrating to the danmei fandom which is arguably the best thing that has happened in my life).

after a while though i started questioning my identity since there was nothing else to do. just before july strolled in i figured out i was lesbian, just in time for the lesbian apocalypse. the apocalypse wasn't anything special, at least to me. after the apocalypse died out i felt i hadn't yet grasped my identity and started exploring more; therefore that's why i am lesbian, transmasc, aroace, and agender today. during the apocalypse, i followed someone/someone followed me. this would be my future s/o.

we started talking on tiktok, and at the start, i didn't want to speak to him that much since i had a lot on my mind; but slowly, very slowly after i added him on discord, i got used to him. i felt that he actually cared about me. one day i put 'i want a partner' as my status and they immediately dm'd me and said 'ME'. then we were together. after that, he talked to me constantly and we ended up creating a friend group. although nowadays the group isn't thriving as much i still care about the friends i made with him. just recently he showed me his face AND WOOOOOOOW i could go on and on about how cute he is istg... yet recently he also relapsed and as well started school, i feel bad but i don't want to do anything to hurt him on accident.

on the topic of school, my school supplies/clothes are arriving and i'm starting in less than 2 weeks, and tomorrow is my sister's 'meet the teacher' and my market day, on thursday i'll be going to the beach which the only part i'll be enjoying is driving there and driving back.

so, basically this summer i figured out my sexuality, got a s/o even though i didn't necessarily want one, figured out i had OSDD 1b wait i forgot to mention that, and a lot more. my friends at school (if i consider them that now) are going to see a new me.

I AM BACK BANPA AND I AM BETTER WOOOO

I DO NOT WANT TO GO TO THE MARKET. IT IS A WASTE OF TIME. (edit: it wasn't all that bad lol)

one of my favorite irls is a mashiro stan AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

the new hhw set is so cute but i dont need them so it would be a waste of my stars!! also regarding project sekai I HAVE NOT GOTTEN ONE SINGLE 4 STAR IN 44 PULLS??!! my luck is way better..

didnt tier for zls, even though i could've, i also finally got the gay book... "Heaven Official's Blessings", in the mail. (i call it the gay book because its name is too long for me to say on a whim) i brought it to school so im checking every 5 seconds to make sure it wasnt damaged, even though it already was when i got it. the week has been getting better, brideselia is coming too!! hip hip hooray for me.

((THIS WAS EDITED))

talking about school // rant, vent??

well, its been a sucky week, and its barely started. i'm pretty sure i sprained my wrist because my friends pushed me over, tugged at my hair, and hit my head because i dropped their cookie. while trying to avoid hurting my head more as i fell, i used my hands to block the fall. (to be honest i wish i just died on the spot because i ended up having a panic attack after on the gravel floor)

and today my science teacher, who i REALLY dislike, called me off for drawing on my hands, which wasnt entirely my fault. my best friend drew one smiley face on me then carelessly put a mark of color on me which she also turned into a smiley face. once we got to science the teacher told me that i'm too old to be doing stuff like that (tbh i am) and basically humiliated me, so i decided not to participate in the 'fun' game that the rest of the class was doing even though i could. speaking of which, on FRIDAY i got hit on the private part because a ball hit me which i thought a boy in front of me was going to catch, the gym teacher defended me though saying it wasn't my fault and was his.

so here i am. in math class. hoping that this week will be over with and i can reach summer break without dying of embarassment or a heart attack. the only things that're keeping me going right now are naps, being home, and rhythm games.

also, these group of girls i semi-hate keep on talking with me; so my master plan is recruiting them with me for the next year... but that might be impossible.

(a girl just saw me writing this. might get in trouble) when life gives you lemons, i make orange juice, not because im dumb. but because im salty.

i finished it. i did it.

i now have all of the zls collab members, all of pasupare's songs, and just everything and anything. my life is NOW COMPLETE. they're all trained, maxed, except for their skill levels. past me would be so proud now. but in exchange of this amazing feat, i now have a headache. and worse posture.