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July 16, 2020 05:54:46 +0000 (UTC)

WAFSack

Sorry for the long post.

I want to post something actually BanG Dream! related today, but my anxiety is making that guilt from one of the parts on my Hoshiai no Sora review post stay with me for some reason, and I don't know why. It's just been blocking my thoughts, and overall, I've just been feeling a little down. It's either that or it's that that show gave me so many different feelings that I just can't handle them. So I think I'm just gonna talk about some random stuff and maybe vent my anxieties a little, and then I promise I'll get back to normal posts once I'm feeling better.

First off, there's a comet that's visible (only in the northern hemisphere) and will be visible for the rest of the month and I think a little into October. If anyone's interested, I suggest trying to look for it, since it won't be back for another 6800 years (yeah, that's a long time). It's currently visible just after sunset. You'll need binoculars to see it, unless you're in really dark skies, then you could probably see it with the naked eye.

I would talk about BanG Dream!, but I just can't think of anything, probably because of what I said in the first part.

I feel like venting my anxieties a little bit, so I'm gonna do that here. It probably doesn't interest anybody, though, since this is mostly just gonna be me complaining to myself.

So, if you don't know what I was talking about about guilt, I'll explain that here as part (basically all) of my anxiety vent. I made a post reviewing Hoshiai no Sora as I watched it, and I had a favorite character, named Yuta. They were my favorite character because I relate to them about the part that they were gay but weren't that open about it, but they were also my favorite character just because they were cute. Towards the end of the show, they were revealed to be non-binary and I said that I was starting to lose interest in them because I felt like I couldn't relate to them as much anymore. I then started to feel really bad about losing interest in them. But then they immediately became my favorite character again because I realized I can still relate to a character even if not fully. For some reason the guilt of losing interest is still staying with me. I think that guilt is mostly because I'm afraid that saying that makes it look like I'm not supportive of NB and trans people, but I absolutely am. I loved to see that kind of representation in anime. I know I'm just overthinking everything, but that's what my anxiety does and it's making me think that you guys don't like me anymore after reading that part of the review, and it's making me really stressed out (Edit: don't take that as what I actually believe. I know you guys probably didn't even interpret that part of that post that way. It's just my anxiety making me overthink). I don't even feel that motivated to make edits, even though I really want to. I know this is all just normal teenager anxiety and that's what makes this part of life so hard. That's also why I love having you guys to talk to about this stuff 'cause it really helps with stress. It's also just that this entire year has had everything bad that can possible happen happen, and that's overall, just stressful.