school is starting tmrw!!

and i am not ready, i am sorting through all of my school supplies, figuring out outfits, deciding how i'm gonna act.. not fun. and emphasis on the act one bc my personality is gonna be all over the place.. obviously gotta be nice to the teachers and i was at open-house/market but i think i was a bit too smug ig?? they were being odd with me.. and idek if my friends like me anymore or if they'll want to sit with me at lunch GOSH FINDING A PLACE TO SIT AT IN LUNCH ON THE FIRST DAY IS SO HARD and so far i only have 1 class with an ex-friend(?) and they sit across from me and i think their friend sits next to me... ITS NOT GOING GOOD HELPPPPP

also i probably wont be able to post on banpa during the school day cause number 1. they banned all devices except school-owned ones number 2. if i get a device its strictly for working on and if i get caught its a warning or a call to my parents 😟😟😟

im also scared because of the usual stuff like who im gonna walk home with, if i get lost which doesnt make sense on my part since i take the same way home and its not far BUT they change the ways u exit on what letter ur last name starts with soo cut me some slack, and supplies, they didnt list folders so i forgot about them and i got the meet the teacher papers and it says 'supplies: folders'.. FOLDERS??? i alr bought my stuff so i cant go back so ill have to buy them online if i need more for other classes since i have like 5 laying around.. and notebooks are basically the same except i dont have any laying around... THEY SAID YOU NEEDED 3?? I HAVE ONE FROM LAST YEAR WHICH IS PRETTY MUCH BLANK BUT IT ONLY HAS 80 PAGES AND IT NEEDS TO BE 100?? AND I RIPPED OUT A PAGE SO 79... GOSH. 4 notebooks, 5 folders. why is my life so agonizing broo. also, band, i forgot to buy a band shirt and i barely fit in my other one... AND I HAVENT EVEN BOUGHTEN THIS YEAR'S SUPPLIES.

expect another full-length 'vent' post on banpa tmrw. i am scared 4 my life.