The thing about my first real post (and about all my posts from my first month or so) is that I know why I 'talked' like that, and I hate it, SO MUCH.

I already felt a large disconnect between me and my past self at my 2019 birthday, I've past my 2020 birthday, it's even worse. 17 year old me is such an odd person (that's coming from me, I'm odd and crazy and everything in between) and I don't even know why.

That post isn't me, that's just someone trying to not be me. Good thing it didn't take me long to realise that, being myself is 1000x more fun.

Edited my first profile picture on as well! I may 'hate' this post, but that doesn't mean I don't love it! One of my first posts and also the start of posting daily for I think over 6 months. I have fun looking back at my past self (and old writing), it's why I'll always say never to get rid of old work, no matter how 'bad' you think it is.

By the way, it took me 19 days (almost to the minute) from my first post to do an introduction post. I dunno if that's the case of being shy, not being able to turn thoughts into words... or both. Probably both.