Depression is always something that'll kind of mess with me probably for the rest of my life but for the most part I've kind of dealt with it but it always lingers there and honestly it scares me sometimes because I can be in a pretty good mood or have a really good day and then I just feel empty like totally devoid of any emotion and I just kind of lay in bed and stay there unless of course I work because I'll just distract myself and get the day over with but this isn't me trying to get people to worry about me but more so for anyone that feels the same way or is in any kind of slump I just wanted to say you're not alone and that things will get better there have been so many times when I was younger that I wanted to just give up and just said what's the point of being here but if anything would have happened then I wouldn't have met all these people who have a special place in my heart from my friends my family and even you guys I wouldn't have ever been able to experience any of this had I given up so I'll always keep going forward and giving it my all and I hope you do too life is a struggle and days are hard but believe me all of us are going to get through it together anyways I've rambled on for too long once again so I'll stop there anyways have a good night/day everyone