hello and welcome back to random life updates with Nija (I swear I'll shut up someday)

I may or may not have made my intense frustration with linguistics known before but I recently had a breakthrough in syntax class; now today I was bored in class and just did some random complex sentences on my own and when I showed them to my prof afterwards, turns out they were entirely correct and he told me he thinks I'm gonna do fine in the exam in this rly proud & surprised voice (this is the third time I'm doing this class and the second time with him as the prof, he's one of the few who actually remember who I am so I'm like 70% sure he's personally invested in this lol) and like. getting praised for something you usually suck at is sO NICE and knowing you finally understood something difficult for good ...

I go on and on about how I'm dumb but I actually get rly easily frustrated when I get stuck something I'm supposed to excel at (like languages) and this was such a big roadblock for me ... blame my ~*\gifted kid*~\ upbringings for my perfectionism & inability to study which are constantly fighting in my brain (please if you are one of the younger folks here make sure you learn how to study properly even if you don't need it yet, trust me on this, otherwise it will heck you over in the future) aNYWAY what I wanna say is I CAME, SAW, AND GANBARUBY'D. is this the year I finally pass this godforsaken class??? WILL I FINALLY BE FREE