just my last thoughts

i've never been empathetic one. It doesnt' mean that i'm 100% asshole b*tch who can't feel, but still. As fact. I said before, i've never been in love. But not only this, i think i've never been strongly conncted to ANYONE. I don't feel like i love my best friend in any way, and i don't love my parents, i guess? even though they are normal parents, they did nothing wrong to me. ok, i knew that. but now i know one more thing. i can't love charactets too. lol. i mean, i can feel something good towards them... a bit,.. but i have never been, you know, a fan. i can't scream OMG ITS MY GIIIRL I LOVE U MY DEAR, YOU RE THE MOST PRECIOUS GIRL/BOY IN THE WORLD, AGAIN I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, etc. i also don't have thoughts like 'i want to have as many merch with this character as i can, oh you see lets buy it!!!' so, mmm, you get. sometimes i feel stupid because of this, cause, sites like this have so much expressive fans, who really loves characters and are ready to give them all their love... haha...