I'm starting to think languages kind of hate me even if I love them because

English @ 3 year old me: ok listen. you know how you do that RRRRRRR sound? we don't do that here. do it silent. also, the h makes a sound, but it's not that strong. but it's not silent either.

3 year old me was obviously confused until 9 year old me appeared, and 9 year old me was like: alright I got this

ah

BUT THEN

German @ me right now: you need to do the R in your throat. oh and there's this thing called ö, which you can't do because Spanish doesn't have that sound and nor does English. sure, you'll manage to get through the ä and the ü, but the ö? lol no.

me:

me: w h y

I know German has an actual REASON to not roll the Rs but. just. why. it took me 6 years to get through the silent R and my classmates haven't got it yet.

tl;dr: give me a sound that I can actually do, please and thank you

(I still LOVE languages and I really want my future job to be related with them but I just skfjskfjskg)