my status says it all~ why do i bother with this life of eternal salt

• 2500 stars spent on last gacha, no hina
• 20000 stars spent on re:zero, no yukina or rinko
• 13800 gems spent for seasonal serena on masters, no serena
• 12000 gems spent for gladion on masters, no gladion
• 1750 stars spent on CNY gacha, no moca

WHY AM I A WALKING BAD LUCK CHARM AND MY LIFE IS JUST FULL OF SALT SOMEONE JUST KILL ME ALREADY I DON'T WANT TO CRY EVERY DAY JUST BECAUSE OF THIS