whee whoo this long as fuck anyway hello. it's me again (surprise surprise) anyway i really like how everyone's been gushing over their best girls, so it's time for me too as well :^) fortunately (or unfortunately either way) for me, my best girl lisa is p popular aka i doubt i can do her justice since most people. including the mods. probably already like her bUT i guess i could use this as a chance to share my story with her and therefore why my love for her means a lot to me ;;

- the beginning ☆

ok so backstory i joined bandori wayyy back near the end of the stargazing event, and immediately fell in love with it. i had trouble picking a best girl at first bc heck they're all too good? but then i did my first 10 pull, and scouted initial lisa & saaya's 3*s. by then i had an inkling that lisa stood out to me bc a) she had a really nice design b) her voice was cutE and c) she just wanted to see yukina smile again how precious and gay is that - so scouting her just solidified her ranking as best girl, as shallow as that was

cut to a few months later, and lisa's first 4* - lim swimsuit btw - was released. i was blown away, and pulled for her but failed otl still, i painstakingly grinned for her, hoping to have at least 2 more pulls to get her. then it was the last day of the event, and i was having a fucking horrible day. the details don't really matter, but i was really down in the dumps. i decided to scout once-

-and lo and behold she came home! i was so excited - my faves almost never came home, and yet lisa loved me enough to bless me with her lim 4*! for once i felt really loved, as silly as that sounds. that's why lisa is my best girl, and that's why i swore she'd always, always be - i'll forever treasure the gift of happiness she gave me that day.

- the mountain of troubles ☆

then again, nothing can be sunshine and rainbows, especially not in a gacha game :^) perm marching band lisa came swinging by, and i was ecstatic! back then, the ever naïve me believed so strongly that she would come home - why wouldn't she? lisa is a lovely, lovely girl who would care deeply for her fans - the fact that she came by once made me hope that she'd come again.

i was wrong.

four pulls later (with the first one being another 4* that cucked me and the game crashing on the last one) i had zero stars. i was so gutted. how could this happen to me? i put in all my faith, all my trust and all my heart in her and yet... and yet...

that's why i began to pull away from bandori, albeit unconsciously. and when valentines lisa dropped, i still bore hope - but not much. no surprise there that she didn't come home. it's quite sad to say it was bc of my gacha experience that made my drift from lisa, but it's the ugly truth.

- the resolution ☆

well, there is a happily ever after! i've been saving like mad ever since the scouting rates doubled, waiting for a lisa 4* to drop and for me to try again. i didn't have a shred of hope when i saw the roselia band story 2.0 cards, but i hoped that at least i could scout a new 4* with 5 pulls.

so i did my first pull. and saw rainbow lights. i remember thinking to myself, "calm down, there's no way it can be her... remember last time... remember when-"

'last time' no longer mattered - she came home.

she came home on my very first pull, and i almost cried. while my feelings aren't the same as that fateful day for they have become too tainted with bitterness, it was still a very, very satisfying sensation. i just... i just can't believe it. i see her now whenever i open jp bandori, and i'm almost speechless. she's so beautiful, and she's finally home. it almost makes me think that all that struggling, all that self-loathing, all that confusion was just to make this moment all the more bittersweet and precious.

will i still be able to love her the same way i used to? i doubt so. but we've gone through so much together, and i've grown so much from loving her. so that's why i love lisa, and even though i tried to change my own mind to stop loving her and let go, it never worked. so yeah, sorry for that word vomit and thank you for reading my painful gacha story spawned from my love for my best girl <33